Let's see... as days goes by in Polo Ralph, I find myself more attached to the company. Life is basically easy here as I'm more accustomed to the stress level. The only complain which I have is my deteriorating eyesight all thanks to the stat sheets with font size 4 created for analysis.
My right ankle has been hurting since last week and I'm not certain of the cause. The only logical explanation would be the wet weather. I've started to play basketball again since December '06, every Saturday morning with my brothers, our 'pet' and Albin. I'm really grateful for having them in my life as they are really an inspiration and my strength in many things.
I've decided not to stay in contact with numerous people ever since my break-up with Wendy but yet I was still not firm about my resolve. Anyway in this New Year, I'm proud to announce that I've finally managed to put aside all those lingering thoughts and emotions and move on. I might be changing my number yet again in the near future so as to totally break all ties with these people. No point staying in contact or being so-called friends if in actual fact, we're nothing more than acquaintances or tools. Therefore, it is beneficial for both the other party and me as I draw this line clear.
I bumped into Valene two weeks back and I'm glad to say that there is neither affection nor feelings for her. Sadly, there is a sense of resentment which just couldn't go away. Not only that but I've moved on from the sentimental attachments which I have over all my past relationships. There is no longer the thinking of what may have been. I'm glad God made me bump into a few of them at Vivocity for it affirmed my growth in this aspect.
Well, but this doesn't apply to Wendyat all. In any case, she is the raison d'�tre of my tremendous growth as of late and besides she's the one whom I've decided to spend the rest of my life with. It is true that there is plenty of frustration and dejection that comes from this 'chase' and I'll complain but just ignore me as deep inside, I'll never love another. Moreover, my persistence and perseverance comes from knowing that the reward at the end of this 'chase' is priceless.
I'm being exiled from my comfort zone and it is indeed harsh. However, it has made me grown and made me more focused on the journey of which I had chosen to embark. It is weird that Wendydoesn't really think much of me when I'm being told by so many others of my capabilities and my talents. Yet when I see it from her point of view, I'm indeed worthless and not much of a gem in anyway. I have not shown her any results or any accomplishments ever since we got together till this very day and sincerely, love and devotion to her is just not enough. The harsh reality is that without that financial stability, there is no time for relationships; it is a pair and cannot be separated.
Enough said about relationships. Nanyang Polytechnic's Open House is just around the corner and I do feel a little excited about it. First of all, Albin will be performing as a member of Foreign Bodies while JMD seem to have quite a good choreography on hand and have practiced hard. Secondly, I'm looking forward as to how low Sakuran Club has sunk. I know that I should not be saying that but it is the truth that Sakuran Club is near the brink of extinction.
JMD will survive as it is the only Japanese cultural dance body found in our school and is very much recognized by JAS all thanks to us. In saying that, I'm glad to say that JAS will be performing in this year's Chingay if you haven't known; Singapore Ondo Remix. The current batch of JMD will be taking part while though F4 was invited but we're too busy with our own commitments thus we chose to opt out of it.
For people who are wondering how the rest of the F4 is doing, I would say things are looking quite well for all of them though there were some bumps along the way but it isn't anything that can't be solved.
I'm glad Ezzat has finally moved on from Su Ya and honestly it is the best for him. I do hope that Su Ya too will understand that Ezzat has a new life and she is not part of it in any way. Su Ya made a choice and should be contented with her current beau for the past is nothing but memories for reminiscing and not for us to hold on to.
Ezzat has been through two hurtful chase for love ever since the end with Su Ya and one of it is actually quite recent. All in all, he is fine to a certain extend in terms of his emotional state and is enjoying his life at work and not forgetting the girls that are so awe-struck by his charismatic personality.
Xiang Min has been enjoying his single life and has put in much effort in trying to carve out a better future together with me. His work has given him the privilege of flying around but it doesn't really appeal to him. He finds it a bore as his boss is such a mind-numbing and dreary companion.
Jaeson is very much the same and is still pursuing his dream of becoming a singer. His life is all about going to lessons, spending quality time with Jess and hanging out with his brothers. He got a bad infection in his eyes recently and was hospitalized due to that but he has recovered though not totally thus no worries.
Basically that is a summary of my thoughts and on-going things that is in F4's life. Things are looking much better for all of us in this wondrous New Year and I do pray that it is the same for you readers. Until I update again. Take Care and God Bless!
D^Boy aka HiiRaGi
A Life dedicated to the 'F4' family, EGUES, Adorhythmatics & my Girl